JOCKEY Adrian McCarthy said he was looking to the future after revealing during a disciplinary panel hearing on Thursday that he had been battling with alcohol and cocaine abuse and had attempted suicide.
McCarthy, 42, had his licence withdrawn for six months at the hearing after testing 1,000 times over the threshold limit for metabolites of cocaine following a urine test at Chelmsford last October, with the ban backdated to the date of his licence withdrawal on October 22, 2020.
During an interview with the BHA in November last year, McCarthy outlined how he had become bored and depressed during lockdown and had “too much time on his hands”, regularly drinking all day and taking cocaine three times a week.
McCarthy, who represented himself at the hearing, had cooperated with the BHA once the positive test, which showed him to have 150,300ng/ml of benzoylecgonine, a metabolite of cocaine, in the sample, with the BHA setting a threshold of 150ng/ml, was revealed and described himself as being “in a lot better place” than he had been at the time of the test.
He said: “Last year and the year before I was really depressed. I’m on tablets now and am having counselling – I’ve had counselling in the past – and I also tried taking my own life. I didn’t care about myself, about anything, about being here. I was using drugs – cocaine – and drinking to try to make things better but they only make things worse.
“I’m looking forward to being positive and I’m looking to the future. I’m in a lot better place than I was before and I’m enjoying my work. We all make mistakes and I regret it but we all have to look forward and work hard.”
McCarthy said he had been going back to the gym and was riding out for Newmarket trainers Peter Chapple-Hyam and Darryll Holland.
Panel chair James O’Mahony said it was “unforgivable” that McCarthy rode in a race having taken such large levels of cocaine and that he had “let down a lot of people and the sport”. The panel did, however, commend McCarthy for his cooperation.
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